CrackBerries

Babe...I need a CrackBerry like I need a hole in my head. lol

Do you see the big red useless thing in my driveway?
How about the beautiful but worn black one?

Why is this so hard to understand?

Look at my life. I'm a minimalist. Unlike other people we know I don't waste money on shit I don't need. I've long ago given up on most things on my Want List." Instead I live off the Need-Right-Fuckin'-NOW" List.

I don't have, need, or even want...

• Cable - What a waste of money. Three bajillion channels and nothin but shit to waste time on. I'll read, write, play with my dog, listen to music, work out, or paint my toes blue thank you very much.
• Flat screen TV - ummm...see above.
• Kitchen gizmos, gadgets, and shiny appliances - Is all that really necessary? Our grandmother's fed families with a stove and a fridge. For some reason they didn't need an entire closet full of extras contraptions. Okay, a waffle maker is nice. lol
• A New Car with a New Car Payment - lmao...yeah. My bank account doesn't flow like that.
• Designer clothes, shoes, accessories, furniture - Naaaaa...Target and Payless work just fine 99% of the time. And my Big Lots furniture looks pretty damn cool.
• Movies - I haven't watched a movie in I don't know how long. lol And the few times I do catch one, I'm usually cranky because it was lame as hell. Another waste of time.

I live in reality.

• My favorite bra has teeth marks in it. lol The puppy though it seemed to think it was a good choice for a chew toy. Yeah. I still wear it. That's a few bucks I don't have to spend just yet.
• My awesome winter dress coat: $60 on sale at Macy's 2 years ago. No brand name. Just warm as hell.
• My awesome winter practical coat: A hand-me-down from my uncle with a giant mend around the pocket. Damn dog. lol Once again - warm as well.
• I can't even think about car repairs until after the holidays. It sucks, but what choice do I have?

I know. The crackberry was FREE. But the services attached to it aren't. lol Yeah. It's cool. Yeah. I could probably gain some efficiencies. But really...

Look at my reality, babe.
-K.

Silence Reigns

Do you feel it?
Do you realize it?
The echo of silence.

Trust is a finicky beast.
Its existance can be your best ally.
Its absence your greatest downfall.

Building it takes time.
Nurturing.
Intentional selflessness.

Losing it takes a moment.
Getting it to return.
Nearly fuckin impossible.
-K.

Hearing Angels Sing

For about a month now, I've been craving pancakes bathed in syrup and butter. Mmmmm...just thinking about them would make me drool. Considering my kitchen is still under construction and my car repairs are on hold until after the holidays, I was at the mercy of Ranger's kindness.

So finally after a long wait, I got - not just pancakes - but my ultimate heaven-sent favorite...pecan pancakes from Cracker Barrel. LOL Which of course happens to be one of his least favorite places to visit. Seems like no matter what - I'm meant to make things difficult. ;-)

I swore to him angels would sing. Hehehe

He must like me just a little bit - cause I was like a kid at Christmas about this whole thing - a complete pain in the ass. Hehehe
-K.

Restless and Sweet Potatoes

I'm twitchy tonight. Can't seem to find a place to settle. Sometimes I find that in a good book, in some extra work, in yoga, in playing with my dog, in writing, in surfing the newswire for interesting bits, or maybe just a simple nap. But tonight...nothing seems to be working. No matter what I try to put my focus on it scatters in a million different directions.

And that bugs the shit out of me. lol

I feel like I've accomplished nothing this evening since everything really just turned out half-assed. Ehhhhhhh...

The news was kinda lame. Surprise! We've been in a recession for a while. Dumbasses. Oh and Idiot-in-Chief is "Sorry." Yeah. Sure. I believe ya. And how much did your buddies make in the last year of the American people? Billions???

The yoga was way off. Not a damn bit of centering went on in that exercises. But at least I got in a little workout.

The entire time I read through my marketing book, I was thinking about the half a dozen other work things I need to address: the crappy pr piece that showed up, the weird new proposed campaign, the upcoming product launch, the direct mail project that just landed on my desk for next week, the new website build, the concepts for the new Mac campaign. AUGH! You'd think I didn't accomplish a fuckin thing today.

This is the third blog post I've started in the last hour. The first two were for a project I've been playing with for the last 6 months that I need to get in order. But the words weren't coming the way I like them to. *sigh* So I'll go back to that later.

Good book...ehhhh. Really don't have one. I'm just picking at a few short stories that aren't really hitting the mark with me. I need more depth of character and plot.

Keiko...well, she's still recovering from the Thanksgiving trip. But I did manage to get in a decent brushing, so hopefully the hairball clouds won't be as thick tomorrow when I get home.

I even tried to nap earlier, but couldn't get there either.

BLAH!

So here I am, and the only thing I can think of to blog about next is that I really don't like sweet potatoes. Really. I never eat them. Before this Thanksgiving, I couldn't really tell you why because I can't ever remember eating them. I've always skipped that casserole dish at holiday dinners, and no amount of marshmallows could ever persuade me to scoop up a spoonful. But Friday a little pile of them accidentally ended up on my left-overs-for-lunch plate when someone else was getting things ready en-masse. They were touching the green bean casserole that I love, and I ended up with just a tiny bit on my fork that wound up in my mouth, and AUGH. Sweet potatoes are flat out just plain weird. The texture feels like I'm licking grass. The sweetness isn't right for the texture. And orange food should be reserved for either some kick-ass wings or pumpkin pie.

So it's now official. Me and sweet potatoes don't mix well.

Now I'm going to slip into the tub and after that, hopefully, drift off peacefully to sleep.
-K.

Returning from Thanksgiving

It's Sunday night. I'm not quite recovered from the holiday and definitely not yet up for work tomorrow. Ehhhh... A few highlights from the last week.

• Wednesday afternoon we were pulling out the leftovers from the company Thanksgiving potluck and realized we had no plates. I made a call and got directed to the "secret" closet. There was bed in there. WTF?!?
• I've got Keiko to play fetch. Ha! And I was told that she wouldn't. I've also managed to get her to have just a bit of dignity when she's around Ranger. Instead of the freaking out oh-my-god-it's-you psycho happiness. *sigh* Of course puking in his Escape didn't really help her points much. lol
• I've finally figured it out. She has a Lucky Star following her. Because there's no other way to explain how these things happen to her on a regular basis. How do you end up sitting next to an NFL player on your flight to Thanksgiving? 6 3, 300 lbs, tattoos...yeah, I was jealous. He'd definitely make my first round draft! 99 Houston Texans
• "You" "Hippo" predictive text can be a bitch. lol
• If you believe marriage is for better or worse then maybe you'd better check with him on what he believes. Cuz internet dating probably shouldn't be on the list.
• Quote of the Day: He looks like a Mexican Fred Sanford. ROFLMAO Priceless.
• What will wear out an Akita puppy? 5 kids under the age of 10 plus 5 adults. I think she had people overload. She's pretty much napped most of the day.
• Ummm...brining 2 extremely sick kids into a house packed with people and several other babies is about the most inconsiderate thing you could do. Girl...think. It's really not that much to ask.
• Early extraction: Thank you!!!
• 2nd Quote of the Day: "Ummm...did that just say Youngstown 49 miles?" Huh. That trip was just meant to be long.

Time to read now.
-K.

Comments - The SmartAss Kind

Some days are a little more fun than others - especially when I can let my inner smartass roar. Hehehe

• Quote of the Day from Sunshine Girl: "If I only had a brain." Yes. That was absolutely perfect.
• You really are fuckin crazy. Really. Now there's absolutely no question.
• Ummm...You're not crazy or weird, the world just bends to your will. lol
• What the FUCK was THAT?!? (Okay so that's been said over and over for 2 days, but really...NONE OF US can get over how "underwhelmed" we all are.)
• What? "Sterile" isn't an appealing adjective? Really?
• Big brother? Really? Fine. WhatEVER!
• Okay America, Congress, Idiot Still In Office: Approximately 1.3 million jobs lost when it will cost $29 billion and we've already set aside $700 billion. That's an estimated 4%!!! You'd think this would be a no brainer. The answer is unfortunately yes. But definitely make those fools accountable and force them to get off their collective asses to get their shit in order. We're better than this.

Maybe I should try to wind down and get ready for bed.
-K.

Crazy in Chaos

Today I wonder...

• Do I require just a little bit of chaos to thrive?
• Is the whole "think positively" mentality really working and feeding itself?
• Have I possibly gone with too little sleep? Maybe the laundromat run at midnight threw off my mental exhaustion and stuck me in high gear.
• Or is it that I finally feeling like I'm winning just a little teeny tiny bit? Ha bitches! Take that!

Ehhh...fuck it. I should just enjoy the good energy while it lasts and quit questioning!!! Woo-hoo!!!
-K.

P.S. No. I haven't gotten laid, and I'm still broke as fuck. lol

Clinton Sighting

Thursday, October 29 11:32 pm

I went to a local Obama rally this afternoon. Already decided. Already voted. But President Clinton was going to speak. And I was curious, and decided to take the 2 hours out of my day.

I'm not the kind of girl that chases celebreties - hell I can't even keep track of the latest and greatest - or fights through the crowd to touch, fondle, or beg for attention. Naaaa... I'm more of an observer. A "Huh. Isn't that interesting." kinda girl.

I've seen a few celebreties. I've seen a few sports stars. A variety of musicians. Ehhhhh...nothing to jump up and down about. (Okay...LL Cool J would probaby send me into a puddle of drool, but...) I've never really felt that awe-inspired. I'd say out of all of the famous people I've been able to observe in person, the only one that's ever...left a mark so to speak would have been Nelson Mandela. His words were inspiring and thought provoking. And I was mildly suspended in "Wow. He changed the world forever."

But back to Bill. I'd never seen a president before. Nope. And considering the few that are still breathing. Well, Clinton is the only one I have any interest to see or hear speak. However, a campaign rally wasn't really the forum I'd choose. I know. A girl can't necessarily pick and choose the format. But still...I'd prefer to sit back and watch a one-on-one chat with Bill and Ranger. LOL Now THAT would be fasinating. But anyway...

Notes:

• Bill was late. Okay, okay...but hello, some respect for people's time please. And my feet were starting to hurt. And the girl in front of me and the young mom next to me twitching over her kid was on my last nerve. lol
• I was only about 20-25 feet from him. (My phone for some reason seems to double the distance. What is with THAT?!?)
• For all of you paranoid folks or those too busy stereotyping. No. I was not the only white girl in the crowd. In fact, I'd estimate that the make up of the crowd was, 85% white; 10% black, and 5% miscelleneous.

Two conclusions:
Even 10 years ago, I wouldn't have done it. Nope. He just didn't do it for me. At all. Interesting. Mildly charismatic. But naaa...the combination wasn't right for me. Maybe there was too much good-ol-boy or not enough rebel. Not sure. It just wasn't there. To clarify (because I tend to be a little vague at times) I would not have done a Monica. Now I did consider the angle of "wouldn't it be something to know you did it." But then that would mean I'd be willing to do the same to the current idiot holding court. And fuck no. Never. Yuck!!!! Power is definitely not a driver in my make-up.

Bill Clinton struck me as extrodinarily real. Obama is inspiring. Intellictual. A visionary. While still aware and considerate of various realities. Exactly what we need right now. Bill seemed more like a favored relative or a neighbor. "Wanna beer, Bill? Here grab a plate and get in line, we're havin' a family potluck. Oooh...no, don't call the Mrs. She's always a little cranky." lol

In the end...it was a moment. Not in my Top 100. But a small moment in my life none-the-less. I observed a teeny-tiny sliver of history.
-K.

The Tiny Pieces of Vagueness

Bits, pieces, and hints of the corners, shadows, and random thoughts in my head...

• Angry christian chic band. Ummmm...naaaa. I think I'll pass.
• I saw Bill Clinton a few weeks ago. I'll add that to the "Need to Blog" list.
• Storm. Wow. I was...nervous, surprised, and moved. *sigh*
• "I think you just described you." Naaaa...I keep failing the test because I can't make anything work, so they won't give me a cape. But I really want some cool boots and a lasso too. Oh and a fuckin' sweet fast car!
• Naaaa...I'm not into skinny white boys. "Whew! I'm safe!" Smartass. lol
• And you say I'm fucked up??? Ever heard of glass houses???
• A good majority of the men I'm aquainted with are assholes. What is that? They can't overcome the behavior???
• She doesn't realize just how lucky she is and how many women would have killed for the chances that she's had. Errrr...
• Stand up chica! Fight for you. Fight for what you deserve! *sigh*
• Wow. She bought fabric for the someday baby. Waaaa...I'm sooo excited for you hon! *hugs*
• Yeah. What are the chances of THAT happening?!? Huh.
• I'm reduced to a hitchhiker. And this after the whole "positive thinking" effort. LMAO WTF?!?
• No. I don't wanna know who that was. I'm in denial, thank you. It's better that way. If I knew, it would just stress me out and there's nothing that could be changed.

Mmmmm...screen's starting to blur. Time to tuck Keiko in for the night and throw my silly ass in bed.
-K.

A Burst of Babble

Hmmm...could this be the re-start of my blogger ways? Yeah. Not sure. It'll depend on how much shit and judgement I get for being me. lol

But had a few bits to make note of. And this is where I make those notes.

So fuck it.
-K.

Question of the Week

I stole this one from Spammy...

If a love affair was a city which one would you pick?

While NYC is a close second for it's funk, energy, vibe, and diversity, I'd have to go with New Orleans.

Sexy.
Slow.
Steamy.
Dark.
Naughty.

Oh yeah...that city calls to me on a very elemental level. *sigh*

It's been four years since I've been there, and Katrina did a number on it. But I hope it hasn't lost too much of it's character. Someday I'll get back there.

And hopefully I won't be alone. lol
-K.

A Puppy for Kat

Yep. I got myself a puppy about 6 weeks ago. She's a 7-month old Akita named Keiko, which means happy, obedient child in Japanese. Yeah...after the whole cat fiasco last year I was trying desperately to line up some good karma. lol

This a picture from her first weekend. She was a little tired with all the changes.

She's awesome! I've read the "Puppies for Dummies" book. In fact it's damn near dog eared at this point. lol But I really wanted to make this work for both our sakes.

Akita's tend to be pretty dominant, but aside from testing things, I'm still the alpha bitch thank you very much. lol She's extremely smart with a bit of an attitude. We've gotten the basics in at home manners down, so now we're working on mobility...walking, car, etc. She's excellent with kids. Everytime something new has come up she impresses me. Except that she practically falls apart around Ranger. *augh* MUST you act like every other female?!? lol

So all in all, things are going well. I love her to death and missed her a lot when I was in NY. *sigh* She does a lot for my sanity.

Thank you Ranger for such an amazing gift. *kiss*

-K.

An NYC Run

Another NYC trip this week. Overall very good. Only a few minor bumps in the road. We met again with Time. And of course I had a chance to soak up some New York energy. I think I desperately needed it.

Of course one of my highlights was stopping in to see Swan! That was so nice to just sit and laugh and catch up for a minute. But there's never enough time.

*smacking myself in the forehead* I still can't believe I missed the Ranger's tickets!!! Waaaaa...but probably the smartest thing to do at the time.

Other fun moments:

• Walking through Grand Central. I'm always in awe. What if those walls could talk?!?
• The insanely sweet Audi R8. Yes. I was panting a little and probably smudged their showroom glass. lol
• Greenwich Village...very cool. Loved the vibe down there.
• Thai Food
• le poisson rougue (this site's a bit more descriptive) featuring Monica Germino and The Electric Company. Monica was stunning. I didn't always get it, and it sure as fuck wasn't pretty. But it was impressive and moving.

-K.